Monday, March 21, 2005

ditagih tagih..

ini bukan ditagih duit, lebih parah malahan
aku ditagih assignmentku...
padahal aku rencananya tuh pingin ngumpulin pagi ini
tepat seblm jam 9 pagi

tapi karena aku weekend yg membabi buta + agak2 sakit
jadinya nggak kelakon deh finishing tugas ini
aku jadi ndak enak ati sama si Pak guru
sampe ditagih dan nagihnya itu yang sopan banget
tambah bikin aku malu dan kerasa aku ini murid bandel deh

aah, tapi sudah 70% dari tugasku selesai kok
jadi Pak guru (kalo2 anda ngerti dan baca blogku)
tugasnya bakalan tak imel besok pagi2 bener deh
suwer... sumpah pramuka deh

spring is here

pagi ini aku seneng deh
bangun pagi udah good mood aja
karena dibangunin oleh sinar matahari dan bukan wekker pembunuh-orang-sakit-jantung-ku
aku yg biasanya baru bangun udah ngomong sh*t, fu*k, etc (nggak ding, exaggerating aja kok ini, apa namanya --> majas hiperbola yah??)
tadi pagi ini bangun with a smile on the face
just because of a simple thing called sunshine

hmm, terus terus yg bikin aku jadi tambah seneng juga
aku tadi sarapan ala indonesia loh...
beneran, karena tadi bangun pagi jadi bisa sempet masak nasi
terus ngangetin kare kemarin dan makan enak dan lahap
myam myam myam....
btw, si kare itu aku bikin dari bumbu sotonya mamaku ditambah kokosmelk
wuuueeennaaakkk tenan.. aah jadi makin cinta mama

omong2 tentang kehebatan masak mamaku
kan si mama ini pinter masak banget dan bikin aku jadi nggak bisa masak
alhasil aku mikir, kasian ya suami sama anakku nanti
mereka tak kasi makan indomie saben hari wakakakakaka...
pinginnya sih mulai dari sekarang ngumpulin resep2 dari mama
jadi biar masakan keluarga nggak punah deh
itu kan salah satu warisan leluhur, ya nggak ya nggak??

eniwei, aku barusan aja mutusin utk blabbering aja di blog kali ini
jadi apa yg muncul di pikiranku bakal ditulis, without any particular subject or order
jadi bagi yg ndak biasa sama jalan pikiranku, biasakanlah ^_^

aku lagi di sekolah nih, tujuannya mo bikin tugas dalam konsentrasi penuh
but since I AM the Queen of Procrastinating
jadinya selama 1 jam ini aku jalan2 dengan alasan sbb:
1. ngisi air di botol
2. beli kopi di kantin bawah (ketemu lagi sama mbak yg flirting sama aku!! eh aku blm crita ini yah.. lain kali deh)
3. sok2 sibuk ngeprint document2
4. ngecheck imel
5. updating blog
hahahahahaha... jadi agak merasa bersalah nih

and of course aku duduknya milih di ruangan yg di seberangnya ruangan guruku yg itu tuh..
so from time to time, noleh ke kiri utk checking him out, kali2 aja dia lagi jalan2 ke luar ato ke mana gitu
hmm let me see, udah brp hari yah aku ndak ketemu sama dia?
kurang lbh 4 hari deh.. hmm kangennnn!!!!
jadi pengen cari alasan buat ketemu nih
apalagi hari ini aku pake rok lho (in verband met de lente!!)
jadinya biar dia tau bahwa ada feminine side of me
lha wong sehari2nya dia cuma liat aku pake celana jeans belel + kaos.. gmn mo tertarik!!!

eniwei, akhir2 ini nafsu makanku nggak bisa di-rem
walahdalah.. beneran aku kali ini nggak hyperbola kok
ini ada satu fakta yg bisa nunjukin betapa parahnya aku
kan sabtu kemarin aku beli roti satu loaf gitu + strawberry jammya Betuwe (sumpah enak banget!)
nah tebak deh, dari satu loaf itu udah abis brp??
pagi ini aku liat udah tinggal 1/3-nya!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WAAAAAAKKKKKSSSSSSSSSSSS
bearti hari sabtu + minggu aku ngabisin 2/3 roti ini... alamakkk
bandingin sama keadaan biasa: 1 loaf paling2 abis dlm 1 minggu

ndak tau deh, apa ini gara2 perubahan cuaca dari winter ke spring
ato gara2 mo pms, atao gara2 aku stress ya (iya rek, aku stress banget)!!
helppp.. aku nggak mau summer nanti nggak bisa pake rok ato celana pendek
dan parahnya lagi, ada temenku satu cowok yang bilang gini :
"in, kamu kok tambah gendut ya!! apalagi rambutmu pendek begini, tambah keliatan chubby deh "
shit....emang pada dasarnya aku ini gendut and i don't mind
tapi aku ya berusaha (sbg cewek yg normal lah) utk tdk bertambah gendut

numpuk deh masalahku......
1. those damn assignments yg aku udah bosen banget liatnya
2. 2 exams ini 2 weeks time
3. no money left for next month
4. lingkar pinggang yg growing
5. oya baru inget: my non-existence love life

well.... i'm trying to be optimistic lah.. masalah ya harus dipecahkan satu per satu
menurut tingkat kepentingannya... hopefully with the new season coming
i'll get brand new and fresh spirit and hope
now i wonder, how's your spring-is-in-the-air feeling guys??


Tuesday, March 15, 2005

al goed, eind goed

mwahahahaha....
i'm so freakingly happy at this moment
i quit my job.. you know, the one that i was complaining about
i have a feeling that i should feel sad about this
but i just couldn't help to smile and laugh

hehehe
hahaha
huhuhu
hihihihi

these past two weeks were hell to me and i know that was because of this so called job
and now i'm freeeeeeee... yippie...
i know i deserve a better job and a much better bos

anyway, i want to celebrate my freedom by having a hair cut!!!
i've been longing for a hair cut since months ago
and now i have (a) reason(s) to have one
just choose which one is suitable for you:
a) i'm so sad and depressed coz i lost my job, thus i need to spoil myself a bit
b) i'm so happy coz i'm free from the git that used to be my bos and want to celebrate it
c) summer is coming and my hair is all over my face ^_^
d) have someone around that you want to impress

aah.. finally i'm happy again ^_^
trust me, you don't want to be around me when i'm in a bad mood
everything just seems to be alright today
this is the list of things that make me happy:
1. quit job
2. solve my immunocomplex calculation problem
3. nice weather outside, don't even need to wear coat and shawl
4. going to have haircut soon
5. meet my "secret and forbidden" man and see him smiling (AAUWWW)
6. feel optimistic that i can finish all my assignments today since i don't have to go to work

i'm going to enjoy myself for the rest of the day
tata

Friday, March 04, 2005

hatred

I thought yesterday was the worst day in this week. I got yelled at by my bos at work and felt really like sh*t becoz of that. Yeah I know I made mistakes, but come on, I've been only working there for like 3 days and he expected me to know everything. I was even warned if I do one more mistake I can go...
Belieeeveee me.... I WANT TO GO as well.. it's no fun working there, it's just that I need the money so much otherwise I'll throw coffee at his face and walk out of there A.S.A.P.
What a prick!!!!

And of course I kept thinking about this and the result, as I already expected, I am so in a bad mood today. Can't even think about the assignment I have to do today.... Three times F*** to him.

Inspite of the bad stuff I got yesterday, I realized now that I was wrong for this whole almost 5 years. I thought that I was strong enough to cope with everything live's throwing at me. I thought I didn't need anyone to help me.. Such an independent woman I thought I was.

Sadly, that wasn't true. Yesterday, I felt so lonely, tired, sad and mad at this life of mine. So sick and tired of being sick and tired. I need someone to be by my side. To share all my happiness and sadness.

Damn... now I am just being mellow...